Sitting here with a cup of tea, mulling over what has gone on with Jon and me...
Ten blissful months ago we were totally unaware as to what was to lie before us in fact we had just returned from a camping holiday in France. I knew something was wrong because Jon had become ill on our last day there, but never did I dream it would be the start of a long fight with cancer.
Ten years ago, I married my soulmate in a simple ceremony with some of our family and friends there. A day that will stay etched in my memory forever, a day when all of my dreams came true. As I say, it was a simple wedding just the local Town Hall and a social club occasion later, but for me it was a fairy tale, I was marrying the man I loved and adored. Life couldn't be better!
We settled into married life easily and loved each minute spent together, first in a flat and then into our first house together. A little house that now has big memories of our life, and will have more memories of love and laughter, but also of our struggle together with cancer. But, it's a house/home that knows the depth of our love, the lengths we will go to for each other. If walls could speak they would tell you of all the good times, the laughs and outright silliness of our life together. We have had our ups and downs as everyone does, but compared to the good times the not so good are insignificant.
In our time together, we have become proud grandparents of our adorable grandchildren, Olivia and Isaac, I cannot tell you how much they enrich our life. If you feel a little down when the little ones come for a visit, by the time they have gone your spirits have lifted. Olivia is a little dancing queen and loves to show you her dance moves from dance class. And Isaac? Oh Isaac, he is laughter on legs with the speed of a hurricane...you can always be sure of a chuckle when he is in the room.
My children, I have four of my own and Jon has two, we adore them all equally and are so proud of each individual and what they have achieved in life so far. I am also a proud mother in law to Louise and Sarah (almost) and maybe in the future Lauren.
I have three sons, Karl, Steven and David and one daughter, Donna-Marie, they have all been very supportive to us in many ways....always a shoulder there for me.
I can't imagine going through all of this without my family there in the back ground, ready to catch us when we fall. They are my safety net, I'm sure they don't know how much I/we need them at this time, all six of them.
In the stillness of a quiet room, my mind wanders back through the time since we married. Pictures of happy times, fun times and also realising that we have it all as regards what it means to have absolute love. It makes me happy to look around at photos ( and believe me there are many!) and remember when they were taken and what we were doing at that time.
You take life for granted when you're young or at a stage in your life when all is well and going wonderfully...then as we did, you get a wake up call!! I am guilty of not living each day to it's utmost, until now, now little things that used to upset me don't matter any more. Time runs through your fingers like sand, and before you know it, it's running out...if you take nothing more from this blog, please don't waste time, it's so precious. Do things that make you happy, if something is wrong change it! Love the people you hold dear because when time runs out, there is no second chance.
Overall in my life I have been blessed, lucky enough to have had my four darling children who mean the world to me, I love them dearly. I also have been lucky to come to know Jon's two children, Sarah and Jason. I know Sarah a little more than Jason as he lives in the Isle of Man. Sarah is a delight, so full of smiles and laughter..she reminds me so much of her dad. She too is there if I need her, but she is there for her dad seeing him every week for their Sunday afternoons together. This makes him so happy and I'm pleased that they are able to spend this important time together.
Family means everything, do not take it for granted my friends....you will never know when you may need to call on them for help and support.
If nothing more, cancer has made me take a second look at my life and learn that some things are so petty, it really doesn't matter.
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